Don't Try So Hard!

As someone who loves real time, quality relationships, I struggle when I get ignored. I love to encourage, sending letters/cards to others. I love to make time for others even if it means less sleep on my end which is already something I unreasonably get with six children and one on the way. But relationships matter and people matter to me. 

When people shut me out or stop responding to me, it's a huge letdown. I tend to want to keep trying at a relationship, building it with them even when they don't seem to care.

Something that really hurts deep down inside of me is when I feel like I don't matter. I feel like their non-response is their way of not even noticing my existence. When people don't seem to even find a second to respond to a simple word of anything I try to say or do, it hurts.

Every once in awhile, I get a wake up call when I am reminded that maybe they don't want to have a relationship with me. I know others are busy and things happen with life. But I have to remember that I can't try so hard. I have to give the situation over to God and let Him handle it. I've done my part and I will be there for that person should they change their mind. 

Until then, God takes my hurts and pain as He whispers to me, "Listen my child. I am here. I have never left you. I have never forsaken you. I am jealous for you. Yet, you don't always have the time for me. Return to me, oh my daughter. You have not been forgotten." 

"Yes, Lord! I am listening. I have been careless of my time spent with you. You are the most important relationship. You are the one I need to put all my focus on. Everything with everyone else will fall into place as it should be. Perhaps, it's necessary for me to step back and give them space. I will let go of them. And I will turn my focus back to You." 

So, when you feel doubt rising inside of you or that maybe things aren't working out with your friendship with another, remember to give yourself a break. Think about how much effort you've put into your relationship with your Heavenly Father. Remember the times you ignored Him. Just as He has forgiven you, forgive others for their mistakes too. And be patient! It may be part of the plan.